Setting my intentions for the next year
In years past, I would sit down on December 31st and begin the list of resolutions for the next year. A decade ago the intentions were all about quitting things: drinking, smoking, and eating bad food. I would be thinner. I would be more fit. I would be more together. In short, I would run away from me to be someone else – someone much more cool than I could ever hope to be. Most of these resolutions were forgotten before January even hit double digits.
In 2019, I parted ways with my tradition of setting resolutions. Instead, I set an intention. I picked a word that would be my touchstone for the year. The word courage fell into my lap and it couldn’t have been a better touchstone. 2019 was definitely a year that required courage – courage to try new things, courage to face old fears, courage to face old closeted skeletons….The list goes on.
It’s the last day of 2019, with just hours left before this year is behind me. It’s been filled with greatness and sadness. Here’s the highlights in no particular order:
- I started my Whole30 coaching business.
- I got out of my comfort zone and started serving as a sponsor to other alcoholics in recovery.
- I came face to face with my unwanted status as a survivor of sexcual abuse
- I gained 30 pounds and did A LOT of retail therapy trying to avoid facing up to that last one.
- I watched two my children begin and/or continue their service in the US Army.
- I attended the Whole30 Coaches Summit in Park City, UT and even rode the gondola to the top of the mountain. (That last bit wouldn’t have happened without the help of some wonderful Whole30 coaches who helped me through my fear of heights to get on that gondola.)
- I set some boundaries that changed or ended some relationships. Likewise, I opened myself to other relationships.
- I traveled a bit – Utah, Oklahoma, and North Carolina – and set my eyes on the ocean.
- I started attending Adult Children of Alcoholics (ACOA) meetings.
- I started this blog and started writing again.
- I finished a few home decorating projects.
- I started exploring Trauma Based Yoga.
- I finished 3 more semesters of my MSN.
- I celebrated 9 years of continuous sobriety.
- I laughed and cried. I withdrew into myself and came back out.
- I learned.
- I lived.
Now it’s time for 2020
When it comes time to set my intentions, I pray about it and I let it simmer for a bit. I let words pass over me – while I’m thinking, meditating, or reading. I turn them over and over. I wait to see which ones keep coming back and just “feel right”. That’s how I reached WAG2020. I have three intentions for this next year….maybe even this next decade. These three words sum up who I want to be in all parts of my life – they are my priorities for 2020. I want to be:
I think if I can remain focused on these three, the rest will fall into place.
What’s your intention for 2020?